Lost Love Nikita

Thank you for coming to Nikita's page and our story.

  Nikita was two months old when she was flown in for me to hand feed and raise to be a family member.  I raise Nikita with great love we would spend a lot of time together day in and day out it was hard for me to get away  even to go shopping.

 And I would want to rush back home just because I didn't like to leave her alone.  She was a green wing macaw who had a great deal of love to give to me to.  In the evening she would sit on me as I watch TV that was our biggest cuddle time.

  And during the day also I take a few minutes here and there.  To play with her to let her know that  I'm still around.  Her very first summer with me I remember her going outside for the first time.  She was amazed she had an awful lot to look at out there. 

 She enjoyed her car rides on April the second I notice Nikita was not really herself.  She was doing a lot of sleeping and she wasn't eating very much plus the fact she was going through a molt. 

 But I have decided to call the vet and take her in anyhow just to be looked at.  This was April the fifth well as most of us breeders do know and most people out there birds when they're not feeling too well don't show it.  They can hide things for a long time.  Now remember Nikita was in a molt so she was chewing on some feathers.  Not in a chewing plucking way.

  But like she was grooming alot.  anyhow we have arrived at the vet the vet gave her some antibiotics.  Also some painkillers I guess the painkillers were in case she was in some sore  of pain anywhere.  He had examined her and told me i did take  very good care of her. her feathers were nice and shiny.  Her eyes were very bright and her heart was excellent.  He also asked me was there any way she could of got at any lead.

  My first thought was no I don't think so I keep everything away from her she has her own play area with nothing really around for her.  Well he gave her a shot of antibiotic and told me tomorrow meaning the next day.  Starter off on her antibiotic once a day after she gets her first shot of antibiotic wait one hour and give her her pain killer.

  This idea do the antibiotic went well I waited one hour and  gave her her pain killer.  Within a minute or two at the most she was not looking so well all of a sudden.  Now what I did leave out it was also the long weekend.  I had picked her up and put her in my arms as my husband start dialing the phone trying to get a hold of the vet.

  I told him that most of them will be close.  Well I had no longer said that Nikita looked as if she was getting worse.  She passed away in my arms.  she was a year and a hafe.

 Now not knowing what happened or why I found out later.  She had a massive heart attack due to the painkillers.  You see at the vets.  Before I received the painkillers for her I did have to sign a paper I guess it was a paper more or less that they were not responsible for the medication she was getting.  I held Nikita for a few hours.  Then I knew we had to put her in a safe place.  Until she was looked at and picked up and cremated.  Nikita is now back home where she will be put up with me when my time is up.  She is very much still love and God she is so messed.  Now I have banged my head on the wall right up to this day. 

 Asking myself if it was something I did.  With speaking to my vet and other people it was nothing I did.  Nikita was a happy very healthy little girl I spoke to other breeders and lots of them do not give the bird's painkillers.  And then I hear of some that do.  I guess it's like humans we can take something and it'll agree with us and someone can take the same thing were taking and it may not agree with them.

 So this page is set up as each time that I feel very lonesome for her I'm working on my website.  I could always come here to look at her she will always be in my heart.  And to any of you out there who has lost a pet that you have loved with all your heart.  I understand your pain and suffering.  People tell me in time it will go away.

  But I'd like to tell them no the pain might ease up but the love will always be there.  While that's my story of Nikita.  She was a terrific pet terrific bird beautiful girl.  She is greatly missed this June 10, 2007 she would of been two years old.  Nikita now is flying high and free.  Thank you for reading about her.

 Dec 3 2007